My heart is beating out of my chest.
This is the guy from last night. Before today, he had taken down all his pictures on POF because he said he couldn’t figure out how to deactivate. I took the following screen cap after the weight incident because I thought it was so sweet of him. So we talked through iMessage until his phone came.
Before I sent that text at 4:30, I noticed he had put up all new pictures, and it said he was online.
So I’m on the phone with Liz just looking through my messages on POF. and I notice my thread with him is gone. Liz and I both do the username search and see that his profile is still up. So to test, I go and try to send him a message.
I’m leaving the username in the pic. Y’all can go look at him/send him hate emails if you want. If you don’t go look, I can tell you right now he has a big, misshapen head but a nice body. And he can go fuck himself.
So then I go into crazy bitch mode. I tell Liz that I have to get off the phone cuz I’m going to call him. I do, no answer of course. I leave a not terribly nasty message saying if he’s brave enough he can call me or text me back, if not, good luck with everything. Then I send one last text for good measure, “You’re not a good guy.”
By no means did I think I was going to marry this person, but no fucking way did I think it was going to end so abruptly/rudely. Literally yesterday he was saying how much he was looking forward to seeing me, and then we made out for a while and then my ass is fucking BLOCKED. I’m going to block his number.
Did I Secret myself by wondering if it was goodbye for good in my post last night? Or am I just that fucking good at being able to tell when I’m never going to see someone again?
So after the post this morning, I actually didn’t have to bring anything up because he did:
So hopefully that won’t be happening much anymore haha God, of course now he finally really likes me and I’M the one that’s not as into it!
Blasty 3 hours ago:
Blasty just now:
Blasty made a big deal this morning about seeing me tonight. He asked TWICE. We texted a little throughout the day. I knew he was busy organizing stuff in his new house so I wasn’t pressing him about when he wanted to hang out. 9pm I say, “I guess I won’t be seeing you tonight.” Half an hour later, he says, “Sorry a co-worker came by to get supplies.”
Not like I have to get up early, but I would’ve worked out (haha) if I had known he had no intentions of hanging out tonight.
I do have a job interview tomorrow so wish me luck.
EDIT: Ok he apologized a lot. And said, “the last thing I want to do is bring you down right now.” I’m satisfied.
EDIT.2: No, I can’t do this with him again. He just asked me to come over and cuddle. I asked if he wanted to take me on ONE date. He said, yes. How pathetic is that? I went on how many dates with Baby Bird in the span of a month? I can’t. I’m not putting in anymore real life effort (haha thanks shedatesboys) I said, “I can’t. I have to get up early.” He said, “yeah me too. I have to get up at 6.” He used to say that shit when we dated before then he’d hit snooze until 8 or 9 when I had to leave for work myself. Smh.
I haven’t signed into any of my dating profiles in three days. I had the itch like the first day, but I haven’t had the urge lately.
I told Blasty that my life is legit a mess right now, and as much as I like him, it’s not fair for me to let him waste his time. Only my mom, my sister and Liz really know the extent to which I am fucked at the moment. If I can just make it through the next like three months, I should be ok. I just don’t feel comfortable letting him in on it yet. He said, “I won’t judge you. I’ve been through a hell of a lot. I might understand.” He wants me to open up to him, and it would definitely make me feel better to tell him, but I just can’t yet. Hopefully I’ll see him soon though cuz I do like spending time with him.
Fuck Off guy texted me yesterday (after I half drunkenly sent him a text the night before cuz I’m stupid) asking for my email address because he had a job lead that he wanted to forward to me. “I’m trying to do something nice,” he said. And it was nice. “Wow thanks!” I replied. Obviously it’s not anywhere near on the same level, but it reminded me of this clip from He’s Just Not That Into You haha
"I need you to stop being nice to me unless you’re gonna marry me after."
I’m tired. My trip was really great. Just what I needed. Took my mind off some things. Bonded with my sister. Ate and drank waaay too much. Got my nails did (those are my real nails).
But now it’s back to reality. Blasty picked me up from the airport, and brought me back to my place where we made out a bit and caught up about the weekend.
Then I sent him a pic of me eating a banana haha and he called me a tease.
Like I’m not out of line for thinking he should’ve offered right?
Now I have to go find some real food haha